In this podcast Stephen talks depression and coming out.
Summary
This abstract summarizes a recorded interview with Stephen Denekamp, conducted by Gareth Watkins in Auckland, New Zealand, on May 1, 2010. The primary focus of the interview is Denekamp's personal experience with depression and the process of coming to terms with their sexual orientation during the 1990s.
The conversation begins with Denekamp detailing their upbringing in a religious household where disapproval of homosexuality was subtly instilled from a young age. This environment contributed to internalized negative perceptions when they realized their own identity as gay. These early experiences were a foundation for self-hatred, which escalated throughout their teenage years into a profound depression.
Denekamp describes how, even among supportive friends, the pervasive culture of gay jokes heightened their sensitivity to negativity related to their identity. They recount the progression of their depression, which led to suicidal ideation and even a public self-harm incident during a school presentation - a desperate cry for help.
Upon revealing their struggles to a friend, Denekamp found support and was encouraged to seek professional help. This interaction marked the beginning of a journey towards healing. Through speaking with a guidance counselor and a psychiatrist, and engaging in personal development activities, including volunteering with Rainbow Youth, Denekamp gradually began to recover.
They detail the complex process of coming out to friends and family, which involved varying reactions and acceptance levels. The experience with their family was particularly multifaceted, with initial shock and difficulty transitioning to acceptance over time.
Denekamp shares insights into coping with depression, emphasizing the power of personal thought and the practice of self-affirmation. They describe how adopting a positive outlook helped transform their mental state and how they learned to choose their feelings actively.
The interview also touches upon the importance of addressing mental health issues within the LGBTQ+ community and how societal pressures and marginalization contribute to higher risks of such issues. In their outreach endeavors with Rainbow Youth, Denekamp found that sharing personal experiences in schools was not only beneficial for student awareness but also served as a personal healing exercise.
Denekamp confidently states that they no longer identify with depression, having developed strategies to refocus negative thoughts and embrace positivity. They close the interview by stressing the significance of personal growth, self-expression, and supporting others to be their authentic selves.
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