In this digital story Joe talks about growing up and dealing with depression.
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This project was funded by a NZ Mental Health Media Grant and proudly supported by the Ministry of Health's Like Minds, Like Mine Programme and the Mental Health Foundation of New Zealand.
Summary
The provided text is an abstract of an audio recording titled "Yellow - Rainbow Touchstones," documented from Christchurch, Canterbury on May 5, 2010, featuring an individual named Joe, who engaged in an interview with Gareth Watkins. The recording, with a duration of five minutes, addresses the subject matter of growing up and addressing depression, particularly within the decade of the 1990s.
The core of the narrative revolves around the interviewee's personal experiences with depression. The interviewee's condition became notable at the age of sixteen following major back surgery, which veiled the symptoms of depression behind physical pain. The return to school was a traumatic experience, where the visibility of surgery scars led to feelings of alienation and being perceived as a spectacle. Around the age of seventeen, the individual began suffering from panic attacks, which prevented them from leaving the house and exacerbated their obsessive-compulsive behavior, which up until then, had functioned as a coping mechanism providing a sense of control.
An important aspect of this story is the journey of self-discovery in terms of gender and sexuality. At the age of twenty, shortly after coming out as queer, the individual was officially diagnosed with depression. Initial treatment followed a holistic approach, including natural antidepressants and lifestyle changes. However, this proved to be ineffective, leading to medical antidepressants and counseling. Despite these interventions, the following years saw a decline in well-being, partly due to harmful social connections and an overemphasis on sexuality and gender issues in therapy, which the individual felt were not at the heart of their depression.
The narrative also touches on the societal pressures that come with identifying as queer and transgender, detailing the emotional toll of having to justify one's existence continually. Describing themselves as a "mess" during their mid-20s while coming out as transgender, the individual recalls the frustration that accompanied the public's curiosity and intrusive questions about their identity.
Nevertheless, the interview highlights a turning point where the individual began embracing their gender identity while acknowledging the persistent challenges of depression. There is an acceptance that while depression may never entirely dissipate, there are strategies to minimize its impact, such as dietary mindfulness, adequate sleep, and not overcommitting oneself. The interviewee advocates for introspection in achieving personal happiness, emphasizing the importance of being true to oneself—even when doing so feels burdensome.
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