David(August 2012)

The podcast "David - Q12," recorded in Whanganui, Manawatū on the 16th of August 2012, explores the individual personal journey of a young person navigating their identity in society. The speaker shares their experiences of being young and gay in the early 2010s, addressing various aspects of their life including interests, cultural background, gender identity, and sexuality. With an affinity for Japanese culture, karate, and music, ranging from classical piano to club house music, the speaker underscores the complexity of their identity that extends beyond their sexuality alone.

At 20 years of age, the speaker openly reflects on their gender identity, expressing feelings of being mentally female while being content with their current body, suggesting a non-binary understanding of their gender. With a Māori ethnicity and a self-identifying gay sexuality, they speak candidly about the absence of a defining moment in realizing their attraction to the same gender, describing it as a longstanding inclination rather than an epiphany.

The podcast delves into the internal conflict the speaker experienced during adolescence, between ages 12 to 19, where they grappled with denial and even tried to convince themselves of asexuality to reconcile their feelings. Demystifying the coming out process, the speaker rejects the notion of 'coming out' as it forces an explanation of one's private life, unlike the automatic acceptance granted to heterosexuality. They describe their challenging coming out experience, marked by familial rejection, financial hardship, and the end of unconditional parental support resulting in the need for independence and a job.

The discussion ranges from personal growth to societal perceptions, revealing how the speaker was forcibly outed by their sister, which led to hostility within their family. They describe how a period of isolation, compounded by social anxiety, affected their ability to form relationships and open up to others. Despite such challenges, they were able to find solace through the supportive environment of "Closet Space" and developed a sense of community through work and social media.

The podcast further touches on the nuances of friendship, support networks, and the struggles of forming meaningful connections when faced with social anxiety. It highlights the importance of LGBT+ support groups to counteract the isolation often felt by individuals in similar circumstances. When discussing previous relationships and crushes, the speaker attributes their social anxiety as an obstacle, especially the uncertainty around others’ sexual orientations.

Lastly, the speaker shares their conceptualization of virginity, linking it to physical intimacy rather than an emotional milestone, and closes the discussion with gratitude for the opportunity to share their story.

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