In this podcast Alexandra talks about being young and bisexual in 2012.
Summary
The podcast recording “Alexandra - Q12” captures a candid and personal account of a young individual's experience with bisexuality during the 2010s in Manawatū, Aotearoa New Zealand. Throughout the 19-minute audio, the individual explores various aspects of their life, including their interests in music, arts, and biology, and elaborates on their experiences with gender identity and sexuality.
Identified in the discussion is the fluidity of the individual's gender expression, which varies depending on mood and social context. The individual describes shifting between a masculine vibe to presenting as a tomboy with certain friends, illustrating the complexity of their gender expression. Despite previous contemplations about wanting to be a different gender, the subject has reached a point of acceptance with regard to their gender identity and no longer feels tethered to a specific gender expression.
The conversation delves into the individual's sexuality, explicitly identifying as bisexual, while confronting the stereotype of bisexuality being associated with greediness. Instead, the interviewee underscores a preference for personality over physical sex or gender in forming attractions, aligning more closely with a pansexual orientation. The individual's past experiences with both girls and boys are discussed, noting that a sense of true attraction is derived from who a person is, rather than their appearance.
A notable part of the narrative is the individual's recollection of a childhood scar caused by a negative reaction to an infancy vaccination and subsequently exacerbated by scratching, leading to bullying and social challenges during primary school. This personal anecdote intersects with the broader themes of identity and acceptance, as it illustrates how physical attributes can become focal points for discrimination.
The conversation also touches upon familial reactions to the individual's coming out, revealing a mixed reception. While their father is depicted as understanding and supportive, their mother's views on bisexuality are tinged with negative bias, describing bisexuality as greedy. This revelation prompted reluctance in disclosing their sexuality fully at home. Nonetheless, the individual's friends have played a supportive role, with a network that understood and shared similar experiences of identifying as bisexual or questioning their own sexual orientation.
On the topic of relationships, the individual recounts experiences with both girlfriends and boyfriends, including a period of being hurt by a male partner that led to a temporary avoidance of relationships with men. When discussing the definition of virginity, the individual provides a nuanced perspective, suggesting that the concept of virginity can be subjective, especially when one has experienced it being taken non-consensually.
The podcast concludes with the individual facing occasional abuse due to their sexuality, yet choosing to respond to such instances with compassion and pity for the offenders, rather than taking the abuse to heart.
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