The title of this recording is "Lauren - Q12". It is described as: Lauren talks about being young and panromantic asexual in 2012. It was recorded in Manawatū, Manawatu, Aotearoa New Zealand on the 12th September 2012. The duration of the recording is 15 minutes, but this may not reflect the actual length of the event. A list of correctly spelt content keywords and tags can be found at the end of this document. A brief description of the recording is: In this podcast Lauren talks about being young and panromantic asexual in 2012. The content in the recording covers the 2010s decade. A brief summary of the recording is: In the podcast titled "Lauren - Q12," recorded in Manawatū, New Zealand, on the 12th of September 2012, an individual named Lauren discusses personal experiences relating to gender and sexual identity. The conversation brings to light aspects of Lauren's life as a young panromantic asexual in the 2010s, capturing a candid and informative narrative. During the 15-minute recording, Lauren is questioned about various facets of life and identity. Lauren expresses a preference for staying at home and engaging in activities such as playing canoe polo, playing guitar, and browsing the internet. A distinct dislike for Justin Bieber's music is mentioned. As the interview progresses, Lauren offers insight into attending a queer straight alliance (QSA) meeting, contemplating the establishment of a similar group, and the desire to foster an atmosphere of "rainbow power." When the conversation pivots towards gender and sexuality, Lauren clarifies identifying as agender or genderless, despite being assigned female at birth, and discusses the complexity of being panromantic asexual - a relatively lesser-known orientation even amongst alternative sexual identities. It is revealed during the discussion that Lauren realized being asexual only a few months before the interview, an identity previously masked by the assumption of being gay. This transition came after an introspective period involving isolation and self-reflection. Similarly, the recognition of being panromantic emerged at the beginning or slightly earlier of that year, prompted by a relationship and consideration of the nature of attraction. Lauren recounts the process of coming to terms with attraction to the same gender a couple of years prior, influenced by the proximity to bisexual friends. The notion of attraction arose spontaneously but wasn't without moments of doubt, described as a cyclical pattern of confirmation and denial. The podcast touches on Lauren's reluctance to identify as a gender, the engagement with friends and family regarding sexuality, and exploring the meaning of virginity. When addressing family acceptance, Lauren details the situation of coming out to a mother who, with some ignorance, could not fully comprehend Lauren's identity. This lack of understanding, not overtly labeled as abusive within the family dialogue, represents a subtle form of challenge that Lauren faces. Lauren's friends, some of whom are aware of Lauren's identities, act as a support network. Moreover, Lauren mentions having been in six relationships with a mix of individuals identified as male and female, highlighting a diverse history of personal connections. The interview also includes a discussion of Lauren's engagement with the LGBTQ+ community, primarily via face-to-face meetings, Facebook, and online forums. Navigating these spaces allows for greater connection with individuals sharing similar experiences. Towards the end of the conversation, Lauren comments on the relative insignificance of virginity and the fortunate absence of overtly abusive behavior due to gender or sexual identity. This absence of targeted harassment is partly due to Lauren's cautious approach to revealing their identity only selectively. The full transcription of the recording begins:  Hello. How are you today? I'm good. That's good. Who are you? I'm Lauren. Hello, Lauren. How are you today? Good. Just tell us that I'm random like that. I can tell. Can you tell us a little bit about yourself? Um, like what? Anything. Your time. Shine. Um, about your personality. It's pretty boring. Don't do much. Sit at home on the Internet. Play canoe Polo. What? Play? Canoe polo, canoe polo, playing guitar and sing and sing piano. Not that talented. No, not quite. Not that many. So you like music? Yeah. Yeah. What type? Pretty much anything. Anything. Anything and everything. Pretty much. Yeah. What? Don't you like them? Justin Bieber? Oh, yes. Going back to the kid. Pop the poppers. Yeah. Don't listen to that. I wonder why. Yeah. Uh, So were you here last week for QS A Yes. Yeah. How did you like that? It was good. You learn a lot of things. Yeah. Yeah. Understand a lot more things. Yeah. Are you gotta create your own group? I mean, trying to trying to Yep. Power. The rainbow power kind of thing. Yeah. Anyway, um, So what is your sex? I don't have one you don't go on. I suppose my sex is female. Why did you say you don't have one? Because I don't identify with a gender. Oh, that. That was gonna be my next question. Uh, well, I'm the head of it. Yeah. Yeah, but your sex is female, but your gender identity is neutral. Yes, or do you have? Do you have a name for it? Age, gender, age ended? Yes. Or genderless. Or the ex gender? Yeah. Yeah. So, um, what is your sexuality, then? Uh, Pan Romantic as romantic asexuals? A bit complicated. It's not often that we get someone I get to interview someone. That's like, um that likes everyone and no one all at once. Oh, no, not not that. Not quite like that. That that, um that has, uh, the alternative of sexuality. That's not gay, lesbian or bi or pan. Like I've only had I've only interviewed one demisexual. I got super excited over it. I'm not even entirely sure what that is. Demisexual is when, um, you are. It's kind of like it's kind of like you're either by a pan pan romantic or gay romantic or lesbian romantic, but you won't have sex with someone until you've made a actual, proper emotional connection. And it's kind of like a barrier kind of thing. And when you cross that barrier, then you might actually decide to go to the next level with them. However we that's a It's a big, thick barrier. It might not actually happen unless you've got married or you just feel emotionally ready for it. Uh, I keep nodding and you can't tell that. No, no. The people on the other end that's listening to this can tell. Um, yeah, probably not. That's what Demisexual is. Ah, yeah. You can tell why I would get excited. Yeah, I don't think it's common or commonly heard about. No, it's not commonly heard about. Some people might be, but not know what it is. Yeah, it's good for me to explain it. It would be So when did you realise that you were asexuals? Oh, a few months ago. I think before that I was identifying as gay. Could you tell us what happened that gave you the click of realising it? A lot of thinking like, uh, I'm not really sure. Just a lot of I think when you went through a zone where you didn't know where. I pretty much shut myself in my room and didn't talk to anyone and thought, What am I kind of thing? Pretty much you had a A Mm. Possibly. Well, eventually in a Yeah, A really long drawn out one. Yeah. You You're trying to find yourself in a way. Yeah, Yeah, yeah. How about, um, when you realise that you're a pen romantic? Um, maybe at the start of the year of the year, maybe maybe earlier. Um, a lot more thinking. Like, um, I'm trying to remember my memory is not the best, but, oh, I was in a relationship at the time of a guy or a girl. A girl? Hm. 11 months long. It was quite a while, and oh, I was just, like, thinking about who I was attracted to and which way, which is. Apparently different. Mm. Well, it was the first time. When did you realise that you were attracted to the same gender? Well, same gender or a certain gender. That was it. Just a few years ago, Like nearly two years ago. Do you know? Do you remember what happened? Um, a lot more thinking. I don't actually remember that much, but I had a friend who's by still have a friend who's by still the same friend. Probably have lot of friends I buy. Yeah, quite a few now, and yeah, I don't know. And I was thinking, and then yeah, I just came to you. It came to you in a dream. I think it did. Yeah. There goes my phone earlier along with my iPod, and I should pick that up. Yeah. So, um, I came to you in a So are you actually serious? I came to you in a dream. I fell asleep, and then I woke up and it was just like, Oh, they were attracted to the same sex. It's like, Oh, that just seems to happen. Just seems so normal. Did you ever went through a denial period? I'm not sure. Sort of go through one and then come out and then go through again like, uh, looping cycle. Yeah, the same thing. Yeah, It was just like you got a bit confused. Kind of like like I am. I'm not I am not. I am not. It was kind of like a big argument against yourself? Yeah, kind of. Sort of like, uh, am I or am I not too? Yeah. Are you in the closet? Kind of. Currently. Seem kind of. Who are you out to? A few friends and my mum. So when you spoke, um, when you told your mum What? What? How did you do it? Um, it was we were watching breakfast. She was watching breakfast, and I was sitting there looking at her and thinking, Yeah, I think the weather was on. Um, I think it was someone else. Someone else in. I think Sam does The weather, too. Is that breakfast is on TV one, right? Yes. Someone she was watching some breakfast show with the weather man or something. And it was somewhere in the South Island. So not interesting, because we're not doing the the any time. Soon I was just sitting there, and then I told her that she didn't hear me, and she was like, What? She didn't even know I was talking to her. Then I got attention. Somehow I don't quite remember how this was about two weeks ago. Just probably won't remember it and then told her again. And what was her reaction. She told me that because I have all the female parts. I am therefore a female. And I'm too immature to know my sexuality. What did you say to that? I don't think I said anything and then left the house got off and Yeah, pretty much, uh, she got up and got in the shower, and I finished doing what I had to do and left and actually didn't go back for 14 hours, maybe. Yeah. 14 hours. Mm. Was there any other conversation about her afterwards? No. No, she hasn't brought it up. I'm not bringing it up, OK, how about your friends? Um, sort of. I don't know. It's like some of them. I don't even know how they know. Like I know. I told some of them I don't remember who I've told. Some of them know some of them don't. I was just more like a if they know, they know if they don't. Oh, well, yeah, so So, um, with the friends that do know, Do they support it? Yeah. Yeah. So you do. Have. So your friends have they become, like, your little support system in a way kind of Yeah. How about closet space? Have they supported you? Helped you so? Yes, but I think I'm only out to a few of them. Mm. The others still think I'm gay and female, so Not entirely sure. Yeah. Yeah, right. Um, so you've how many relationships have you been in? Um, I come the other day and I've forgotten. Um, we're kind of getting now, I. I get one, but estimate, um, six. I think. Six. What were they like? Who were they? Well, not you don't need who, Uh people. People? Yeah. Humans. Were they females? Males or two female? Four males. I say females again. More males. Two females. What were they like? Um, if someone is short, one was really long and the couple were in the middle. That's very fake. Yeah, One of them was, like, a few years ago. I don't really remember it. One of them I remember quite well, because it was finish ended in July this year, I think. Yeah. Hm. So, um, how do you meet other people in the LGBTI Q community? Mostly here. I know some through school, facebook, through facebook, a few from online forms. And that's probably about it. So what is your definition and virginity? I don't really know. Do you think it's just a a physical thing? A sexual thing? Or could it be an emotional thing as well? I think that there could be, like, both. Mm. But you're not entirely sure? Yeah. Mm. Not one of the things I've thought about in my many. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Lots and lots of thinking. But not usually that. Hm. It's not really something that doesn't cross my mind very often. It's not important to you. Not really? No, not really know. So, um, have you ever received any abuse or abusive behaviour because of your sexuality or gender identity? Um, not because of my gender identity, because nobody really knows about it. Except for unless you consider what my mom said. This abuse, but not really. I think that's more like she doesn't understand. Probably. Um, but they can also be crossed with ignorance as well. A bit of both. Yeah, I don't know who your mother, so I can't really comment on that. Yeah, depending on the person. I'm not out to many people as as either, but cheers. Uh, I'm not sure I'm not sure. How about Has anybody ever, um, verbally, like, screamed out to you? Are you lesbian or something? Or dyke or faggot or something like that? I think so. But you don't know at this present time, I can't quite remember. I know some of my friends have as a joke, but that's different. Well, thank you for the interview. You're welcome. The full transcription of the recording ends. 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