lastnight walking barefoot on the lawn at four in the morning sipping chamomile and honey and watching a waning moon present and dissolve above the dark illumed clouds you were also present,your spirit spoke and the calm was placed inside my skull then I feltjoy the naked skin opened and was gently fucked by a delicious breeze porebypore delerious on the sound of the crickets singing my song am I gay and joyous at thismoment that does not register what appears is the happiness of being human - my very cells are smiling later I celebrate an erection in the wonder of those early wakeful hours handstogenitals imbibing pleasure and strength I see men and moremen the curve of the mansneck thrills in its beauty i am homosexual and human.the heart encompasses my universe in joyous times and I singout danceout dream to be in a state of utterjoy is an inkling of freedom falling into the others eyes and being held there themanilove that moment in love to love onemoment joy joyous joyousness Warwick Broadhead is a New Zealand gay performer, author, director, playwright, visualiser, poet, and free spirit. (GayNZ.com's description, not Warwicks!) GayNZ.com welcomes short-format writing based on the joy of being gay or lesbian, whether it be verse, essays, anecdotes or personal insights. The format is not important, the joy is. Email your contributions to us, acknowledging that copyright beyond the environment of GayNZ.com remains with the author, that the work is original, and that GayNZ.com is authorised to publish it. Warwick Broadhead - 30th July 2006