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Well, I knew when, um like when I was about eight or nine. When? When? In the changing shares with the boys. You didn't wanna look at girls? I wasn't even interested in looking at girls. I got on really well with girls. And that's why I always thought that I was gonna get married and everything else. But I've never sex sexually attracted to two women as long as I can remember. I was I was engaged to be married for a while for about 2.5 years to a to A to a woman. And then I broke it off after I thought, This is not gonna work. [00:00:30] And then, um, it was about six months ago that I decided to, you know, I'll just take the the the leap and do it and come out and go back to friends. And I'll come out in Wellington when I move to Wellington because I come from a little country town down south, and yeah, it was a funny, funny reaction I got Most people were pretty alright with it because of where I worked. And most people there are pretty easy going, but, um yeah, it was easy. When I came out, I felt relieved. But now that I've come to Sydney City is a lot harder [00:01:00] and a lot of people are a lot more. I don't know, a lot more ignorant. And even though it's a more open place and yeah, I find it a lot, a lot harder now to deal with than I did before and yeah, that's about it Now I'm just trying to cope with it and trying to get along with it and doing the best I can. I came back to my parents about a month ago in Sydney. They were back in New Zealand down south and I rang them up and we [00:01:30] were just talking and they asked me because I they I wasn't talking about girls. So they asked me if I if I was gay and I got sick of lying to them and I said yes, and they were very, very upset and like my mother didn't talk, she just stood silent at the end of the phone and then she wouldn't talk to me and she just hung up. And then later on, I rang her about probably 33 weeks after that about a week ago and she won't really talk to me much anymore. So my family are very taken it very hard because of my family background [00:02:00] and where we lived very, very conservative town that we lived in. So that was that was the coming out to the parents, which was It's a bit hard, but I expected it. I expected I. I actually expected a lot worse when I came out to them, but, um, yeah, now I'm I'm dealing with a little easier. They I said they've got their own opinions. They can They can think what they like. I said, I my life. Now I just carry on and gotta get over that And but, yeah, it still hurts, but [00:02:30] there's not much I can do about it. I'll just keep on plodding along and hopefully they come around one day, The first male I was with was about It was about six months ago when I came out and yeah, it was It was different to what I thought it would be. I felt Yeah, I felt good because I'd been there and done that. But it's like it wasn't just proving that I was gay. It's like, Yeah, I really like this guy. And it's the way we ended up and we [00:03:00] But we ended up not being friends after that. So that that had a little to know that just being used, but yeah, was wasn't wasn't, um as what would you call it? Um, wasn't what the build up was to it. It was a bit of a letdown. Ohh. Before it was great. I was really excited. Nervous? Everything else during. It was great. Afterwards, I was a bit bit down, but yeah, that was just because it wasn't what I was expecting, but [00:03:30] yeah, it got better and better after that. Every time you asked that. Anyway, so.
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