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Hello. How are you today? I am great. That's great. Um, how are you, Alexandra? That's good. Good to know that. You know, um, can you tell us a little bit about yourself? Uh, well, what am I supposed to say? Anything you like? Well, I love music, and I love arts and biology. Oh, my God. Sorry. Um, I got straight that this [00:00:30] No. Stop looking at the bar. No, I'm not an alcoholic. I just like flavours anyway. Um, yeah, I guess I like flavours. I like food. Um, and what should I say? Your time to shine? Well, if it's views on, like, people's sexuality, I think tell us a little bit [00:01:00] about myself. OK, Um well, I go to girls high, and, um, at my last year, I have no idea what I'm going to do next year, but just get a job or something. In the meantime, um, what music do you like? I like all kinds of music. I'm not really one to judge anything. I'm more like a person that accepts everything can help people out when they need it. [00:01:30] Yeah. So you went to the QS. A No. This is actually my first time here, but I've been meaning to come here for a long time. Just Yeah, it never got around to it because I had parents restrictions before, But now I don't live at home, so I can go out if I want to. Yeah. So what is your sex? I am a girl. So if I say gender identity, are you a girl as well? No, actually [00:02:00] surprisingly, I kind of switch between both sexes, depending on my mood and and also, depending on who I am with, Like what? I feel comfortable as being so around my friend Carla, I'll be a complete tomboy, and we'll do insane things. And then around Lauren will be really hyper and girly, but also sometimes a tomboy. Yeah. Expression. Well, well, how I feel. I, um maybe expression is like, [00:02:30] feminine masculine tomboy. Well, even though I am a girl and I love being a girl, I actually have that masculine vibe about me because I just like it. Do you feel like you want to be a male? Sometimes I used to, um, but now I've just kind of accepted that it doesn't matter. It doesn't really matter, but yeah, I used to. I really I used to be a joke about being a guy and dress up as a guy and everything, you know. But now I personally don't really care what [00:03:00] I come off as is, you know? Yeah. So what is your sexuality? I am Bye. So greedy. Oh, so that's what they call it. They say no. No, it's just some people call it greedy. Um, I call it, um I just say, Well, I'm not I'm not going to judge people by, you know, uh, their sex and, you know, the the physical sex. And, you know, um, I'm more like judge people by who they are, and I judge them on that. So I don't [00:03:30] really notice the sex. Yeah, I'm really I guess it comes off with the really accepting part of me, but yeah. Can you tell us a little bit? What's that? Um, I have a scar. Um, I you know, when you get baby shots when you're a baby, Um, will they give you like you shots just to help start you so you don't get sick and stuff being so young and your immune system being so new? Um I had a bad reaction to my [00:04:00] shot, and my ex is just coming under control now. And, um Well, when my expert flied up, I was, what, three days old? So then there's actually pictures of me without it. Um, I was three days old, and, uh, this my parents' friend at the time, she really wanted to scratch my face. But my parents said no, because you will hurt her. And, you know, being an infant and having really vulnerable skin, it's going to, you know, do something. And that's exactly [00:04:30] what it did. Um, she scratched my face, and I got a really scabby there. And ever since, it's just been scarred and brown and I used to get ridiculed for it growing up, um, I was not the popular one. Growing up at primary, I was more like the one everyone picked on because of it. And I found it really sad because it was, um, you know, it wasn't something I could control, But it's just the ignorance of Children. What would they want to scratch your face? [00:05:00] Uh, because I had eczema and I was trying to scratch, but so she probably wanted to scratch it to make me feel better. But really, she just made it worse. Yeah. So, um So when did you realise that you were a boy? I think I realised quite early on. I mean, I always had a thing for girls, and I didn't develop my, you know, thing for guys until right up till high school. Yeah, and so I thought maybe I was lesbian [00:05:30] because I love girls, and I still do I. I guess I'm a typical guy when it comes to a good looking girl. Like I'm not like class classing gulls or anything, but yeah, you just can't ignore it. Um, But then then I realised I'm by during during high school, I accepted that I was by mainly because my friends around me were also by and it was really acceptable thing in our group, and I loved it. You know, You didn't have to, like, [00:06:00] hide the side of me. So I just thought in the end, No, I'm just gonna be me, you know, and I'm just going to accept it. You can't control it and, you know, don't don't feel like bad about it or anything. I mean, it's just who you are. I mean, you might not like it, but yeah, better being who you are than trying to be something you're not. How How did you feel when you realised? Actually, uh, it wasn't. It was kind of a bit upsetting because my mum doesn't like buys because she finds us greedy. That's probably where [00:06:30] I got greedy, but from she she doesn't. I mean, she doesn't mind lesbians or gays, but when it comes to buy, she just thinks you're greedy and you can't make up your mind and you're being stupid. So I was a bit, um, really reluctant to let her know, But father was always accepting it. He always knew it wasn't me. So could have always told her that you're a pansexual, Probably. Yeah, but I get big words from Mom. She's not going to pay attention. I must say she's illiterate [00:07:00] or anything. It's just Well, what will I call the Well, what do you call it? Biological side of really, like things to do things other to do then, with like things that she's great with, like teaching and everything like that. She's not going to understand it. Yeah. Yeah, So have you. So you did. You ever went through a denial period when you realise that you're a um actually, I Because [00:07:30] I had been I had been into girls for so long. I actually went through a denial stage where I didn't like guys. Yeah. And, um, I was like, That's quite I've never heard this before The other way around. Um, it's just because, um, I was born lesbian, and I refused to date guys. No, no, no. I'm coming out of the closet. I'm like, I guess it's because, um growing up, you know, always being guilt and always accepting it and stuff. And guys, [00:08:00] the idea of being with a guy kind of scared me. So I I was really reluctant to, you know, accept it. But eventually I did. And so I'm actually really OK, Now you're OK around guys I. I mean, you've always been around. OK, guys, I grew up around guys because I was a tomboy and I always liked girls. And when I had girlfriends, we just kind of been, like, overly friendly. And so it was, um I was [00:08:30] used to it, but when it comes to like seeing a guy other than a friend. Um, was new shock for you? Yeah. I'm just like, Oh, my God. What is wrong with me? Because my friend, you Oh, my God, He's hot. But it's not. I can't do this. It's not really looks that make me like someone. It's who they are. And that's probably why I leaned towards friends is because, um that that sounds more like pansexual than Yeah, [00:09:00] Well, actually, maybe it is pansexual. I just sort of by just so people don't get confused. So I know exactly what I'm on. Bisexual. Bisexual is more about a physical attraction between two genders where pansexual is more about, um, your feelings for a, uh for the person as the personality. OK, so here we go. Clear that up. I am not greedy. It was very open. Um, Anything else you like that? Um, [00:09:30] the next question. So are you our deposit? Yes. Definitely. Um, definitely was, um, out since year nine. Yeah, as close as that I. I just let everyone know what happened. I told my friends they always know it. So it wasn't really anything new to them, but telling classmates, um, they kind [00:10:00] of like, you know, got a bit stupid over it. But eventually they just like, Nah, that doesn't bother I. I love it because the people that I'm around are really accepting. And also the people that I'm around now are even more accepting or even part of it themselves. So especially if they are going to like a closet space. Well, I always mean to mean to go because, you know, just to see everyone else's views and stuff. I mean, I find it really I'm not going to, like, you know, classify anyone. It's just who you are and everything. Everybody [00:10:30] has something in common. Exactly. I find it awesome, you know? And you know, you should be proud of it because it's better to be proud than to be ashamed, because ashamed, you can get hurt, but proud. You feel proud, and you're just happy. So when you, um, you came out to your parents, um, came out to my Oh, it wasn't a very happy thing to come out with my parents because, um well, Dad, it was simple and easy. Um, he always knew [00:11:00] it. And so and also him being accepting. He's got, um You know, uh, he's got a gay uncle, so he's used to it and he accepts it, and he doesn't see anything wrong with it. Um, he just say, Be careful because people can hurt you. But other than that, he's just really well welcomed it. I think everybody in that case, I think that's what that's the case for everybody, though I think that what made me really happy about him proving that he really did accept it is like, don't you ever sneak a boy or a girl [00:11:30] in your room? I don't want to find a boy or a girl in your room, Alex or a girl Classify the guilt, you know? And he he was like, really pointing out guilt. I don't think it was either. He was accepting it, but he knew. I mean more towards girls. So he'll know I'm more likely to see a girl and then a guy, Um, Mum, when we actually had a real big argument. And that's when I was just like, you know what? I like girls more than like guys. That was when I was going to a stage where I did actually like [00:12:00] girls more than guys before I came to the point where I just accepted both and, um, I just screamed it out at her and then just stormed off. And dad, you know, didn't like how I told her, you know, could have told her in a more mature way and not just out of it, because obviously, it would have been a shock for her because she didn't notice that. I mean, you know, she was, you know, you see a lot of people with Tom. I mean, she was a tomboy growing up, and so she didn't think anything different of it. And she probably thinks that you're the perfect child. No, not [00:12:30] the perfect child. Actually, I'm considered the most rebellious child in the family. But that's that's That's only because I'm the most honest child in the family. I mean, the only reason why other people in the family aren't considered rebellious is because they're quiet. They lie. They you know, you know, don't be honest, but I'm just honest, and I like being honest and so obviously honestly, get yourself in trouble, but oh, well, so on your little friends group, you had a support system. [00:13:00] Yeah, we had a great support system. I mean, my friend, she she's my best friend. Being my best friend growing up, she was always, um she actually had a denial stage with me, too. Going through where she didn't like guys, um, or didn't like the idea of liking guys. And actually, she only now has finally accepted it and actually got her first guy boyfriend. I mean, my first boyfriend. Really? Because everyone's been girlfriends. And, you know, maybe [00:13:30] it was just She was scared as well, but it's kind of funny. It's like lesbians. The new straight. No, it's just that would actually be really awesome, though. I mean, I would go for that. Um, and also I had another friend who is not my friend anymore because she decided to really hurt me like not physically, but, you know, messing around with friends in there and giving me a title I don't deserve because I've never [00:14:00] done it. And so, yeah, but she's also one. And so she was really accepting as well. I mean, she would work for it as well. Would would would be more lean towards being a lesbian than actually straight. I guess that's maybe some. Maybe it's kind of a thing for girls to be either really proud of or proud to be different or, I don't know. It's just yeah, and so it was really accepting. And also I've got someone in there [00:14:30] Lauren who is also well, she's she's deciding. Yeah, still, Um, no, she's, um, deciding on her own sexuality and deciding on what she likes. So it's like, in a way, she's also deciding on the agenda. So she's not actually really sure on anything, because at the moment, she's not really keen on anything at the moment, so we'll just give her time to figure it out. Are you been in relationships before? A [00:15:00] lot of girl relationships and tell me about Well, they were really. I guess I was a bit, well, really stupid. When it came to girl relationships. I didn't take them seriously, but I guess it's yeah, it because they were more like, you know, friends and accepting. And I guess they didn't really take it seriously. I mean, I didn't take it seriously, but also I was young when I did all that. So, um, a lot of girl relationships and then one boyfriend a couple of years ago. And [00:15:30] I stopped going out with guys ever since then because, um, we went out for nine months, but he decided to blow me off because he wanted to. Because after I built up, you know, his confidence and everything to make him feel good about himself and built up his social life and everything. He's just like, No, I don't need you anymore. And a lot. It is probably the reason why I went through that denial stage because it really hurt. And I try not to get emotional over all this stuff, but yeah, it really hurt. [00:16:00] And, um uh, I finally I didn't date anyone since then. Nobody since then. And only recently. Well, not really recently, more like during the whole beginning of this year and from probably what end of school? Last year, I got really close with my friend, my who is now my boyfriend, Brandon. And, uh, yeah, and he's just I hope Well, now that I'm more mature and you know more serious on relationships, I don't want to, like, [00:16:30] blow it off over stupidity or yeah, and not taking it seriously because, you know, there's no point in that. What's the point of going out with someone if you're not going to stick with them kind of thing? So I hope you last and yeah. So, um, how do you meet other people in the gay community or LGBTI Q community? I think. What's really, um how do I meet them, or how do I just, like, how did they out with it with me? How you meet them? Um, [00:17:00] I don't know. I just meet everyone. I'm they're attracted to you. It's not like attracted or like like, well, I'm social. I even even even if they like quiet and everything, I'll talk to everyone and anyone because I'm nice and I like, make sure someone's OK. I mean, I'm that nice. Um, and, uh, Well, because I'm so open about my sexuality, I guess it maybe gives them a cue to be Oh, I can be comfortable around this person. I can tell them, you know. So I guess that's [00:17:30] probably how it was. So, um, what is your definition of virginity? Well, my definition is probably different from a lot of people because I got mine stolen twice, So I guess the definition of virginity is where I always thought it was. You know that first time when you actually, you know, do it for the first time. But if you have it stolen, then maybe you can, you know, consider [00:18:00] first time when you're actually willing to give it away. That's what I think. Yeah, I mean, it's sad that you don't have it. I mean, it hurts that I didn't have mine, but when you're really honestly willing to give it away, you want to give it away, you know, and you feel ready to give it away and ready to let it go. That's what I think is the definition of not not for the fact that you've actually done it. Unless when it was actually your first time. And you did really want to give it away [00:18:30] then? Yeah, that's my definition. Really? Have you been abused or received any abusive behaviour because of your sexuality? Um, I did a couple every now and then I'll get the odd person that goes stupid. And, you know, it's just by sheer ignorance and arrogance. Yeah, um, where they would insult me for it and insult my friends for it because they're with it too. Yeah, and I would just go just ignore them because [00:19:00] they just don't know And, you know, really honestly feel sorry for them. Because if they're going to be rude enough to do that, then obviously they're just They're unhappy with themselves or trying to put up a wall where they are something that they're not, you know, And maybe it is just plain arrogance. You know, I don't want anything to do with that kind of thing. Just their own view. So I don't really take it to heart when I get insulted about it, because they just don't know. Yeah. Oh, thank you for the interview. Oh, you're welcome.
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